I just realized that I kept making a stupid mistake. I keep ___________________________________________ that ends up in a mess and ultimately becomes nothing. Great. But who knows? Maybe I'll find a gem amongst all the pebbles.

Maybe I should do review... Anyways STJ should be more or less confirmed on 24th May Sunday. So much for caring about people who needs to go to Church... but then suddenly this date and time seems REALLY wonderful especially after what happened tonight. =D

Today for CT Mr. Teh talked to us. It was EPIC. Haha; I think the reason so many people respect Mr. Teh is because he is really honest and sincere with the students. If it's the truth, he'll spit it out; if it's reasonable,he'll tell us directly. His arugments and sentences always have this solid logical reasoning that I find I have to agree to a part of his words no matter what my stand is.

Ting n Amandas were talking about love/relationships in general today. I think this concept of effort applies to all, so I made this thing below

1. Everyone's not perfect
2. So everyone's bound to make mistakes that pisses other people off
3. If the two parties involved do not clarify with one another their problems and motives and intentions, this pissing of each other will slowly stack up

4. One day it stacks alittle too high and explodes
5. Causes crack in friendship/relationship
6. Lots of cracks results in breakdown of friendship/relationship

The solution is very difficult; both sides have to painstakingly make an effort to communicate, really sit down and talk with each other to sort things out. Because everyone has experiences different things all the time, to the extend that what someone thinks right is probably wrong in another person's concept. So clarification is probably the root solution to misunderstandings between people. So if you have an issue with someone, talk to him/her nicely and try to iron things out. Stacking of misunderstandings just leads to screwed-ups.

Or maybe like Amandas or ting said, just be generous and forgive all the time. Dig that.

I realized today that I keep making a stupid mistake over and over again. Can't say here, can't touch on sensitive issues, lest more misunderstandings occur. But I think I'll review my attitude towards different groups of people.
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Since so many people's blog posts are about sad things, emo things, unhappy things, I shall stick to happy things as much as I can =D

Today marked the official end of my new Church, St. Jame's final congregation on its old site. Soon this Church would be renovated until 2011 where a brand new building would spring forth from the old one. So we're currently moved for the moment. =D

The last worship with every member in the parish was very awesome; the music and band were extremely good, since today two guitars, two keyboards, a drumset and five back-up singers are happily performing every song with great enthusiasm. The mood was high haha;

Then we took photos, and for 600 members to do so it naturally took 20+ to 30 mins HAHAHA. Everyone was like milling around aimlessly trying to find a good spot to stand and get seen in the picture, whilst children screamed, adults kept talking in tight-knit groups, several other cameramans (self initiated) ran around the place randomly, kids sticking drinking straws into the air like banners... it feels like family.



And since I finally connected my phone onto the com I'll upload a few CLASSIC pictures haha

Remember this awesome dish? HAHAHA


YUKI YAKI ICE CREAM
"Wah lao, Edward, why the ice-cream look liddat?"
"Wah lao, Who's the eon who rushed over and" (Does action of Xia Yang pouring ice cream into the freezing tub like Dr. Jekyll)

HARHARHAR




Finally, I found this when walking home the thursday before:

=D So fragile yet so strong


That's it for now =D
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Was lied to by someone close today. Talked to it all the time but seems like my requests and suggestions never get across. I always tot some friendships can never be broken, but now I am having second thoughts...Maybe we're not fit tgt after all...

I wonder how many people actually read my blog, lolx. Sighs; I think it's me, but it seems like we all doubt other people so much. If someone is nice towards you or is trying to make friends with you, you believe he or she has vested/underlying interests. If someone is "cool" and "mysterious" and doesnt care a **** about you, you suddenly become interested and attracted to it.

Sometimes I ask myself, what's wrong? Why couldn't we be more open and altruistic. We all say oh we did SL projects, we helped the community, we raised funds, when we can't even make some close friends that are willing to listen to what we say, care about our little details, always remember our likes and dislikes.

When we can't even be truthful to ourselves or change ourselves or be more acceptable and generous to the people right next to us: our friends, classmates, teachers, peers...

Someone told me mysterious guys are more "rare" and therefore attracts girls. Well, all guys have their wonderful sides, and being "mysterious" is at alot of times simply poor in communication, so don't ever beelive that mysterious guys = cool guys. I believe, if you want to know whether a guy likes you or not (whether friends or lovers) , test him on how much he knows about your details, because that's what really counts. Whether he knows your favorite pastime, your favorite spot in the school, the color and shape of your WATER BOTTLE (wen jia wen jia read this XD), what color hairband you wore to school on mondays...if your "friend" doesnt give a hoot about the message you're trying to convey across OFTEN (keyword is often) then review the friendship, that's my lesson learnt today.

To quote a verse from Flying Without Wings, "It's those little things that make you mine" Maybe it works the same for girls? I dk, but at least for guys yea.

To end today's post, I shall post another song: You raise me up.



OH YEA I ALMOST FORGOT; I hereby make an official apology to ANGELA ANGELA ANGELA of 09A11 for calling her by the name of Natalie. >.< Sry!!! I really really didnt mean it please don't tell the other ppl lol, someone already come laugh at me liao haha; as compensation I'll... we shall see ^^
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Guess who's the latest star of the World of Music? Haha She's 47, but that's just one side of her; Susan Boyle's "I dreamed a dream" was soo moving/emotional/inspiring that she appeared on TV around the world, and all prejudices fell short of her voice. Due to forbiddence in embedding, you guys have to search yourself on youtube, but below I have some really enjoyable good music that could sooth you readers of my blog ^^ Please enjoy these few short romantic moments below.

First up, from Ruthie Henshall: I dreamed a dream =]



Next up, is from the Phantom of the Opera's Music of the Night, sang by Mr. Cook


Then, we have If I Ain't Got You by Alicia Keys


Finally to all my friends, espeically Christian Friends, here's Shout to The Lord by Top 7 American Idolists season 7.



Shirak.
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Keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love ^^; Sorry;maybe the smiley was abit unfit with the dark lyrics, but the lyrics have a pretty cheery background. Cause our juniors are performing!! Good luck to them and hope Chui Ling/ Yi Chao wins hurhur

Today's the ZzzZZzZZz Ares Fac outing (in school) haha outing indeed; I couldn't go cause I have business at home, but i stayed back until around 7 and saw some interesting things going on hurhur.

Aran and Rachel bringing pillows (small blue ones) lots of pillows

Big red mats laid out in the inner plaza with Beach Ball ?!?!! Stereos speakers and laods os Soft toys, goodies (I think)

People wearing Red running amok in the school compound

Sighs, feel like joining the JC ones in their fun and carefree activities but I have loads of stuff to complete by today; it's JC two afterall. And HAO pointed out that I had a strand of white hair. lol, he's right, I got my first strand of white hair, haha....

As I was about to leave the school, the stereo speakers blasted out a song that stopped me in my tracks and I almost wished to stand there forever.. it's TS's Lovestory.



Songwriters: Swift, Taylor Alison;
We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw
You.

I first heard it on MTV; I was struck by the romantic nature of her song; I believe most people are constantly searching for other people that love them, and the most common form would probably be love between him and her.

But everything is complicated, and nothing is perfect. Have you ever liked someone, but he or she does not care to even look at you?

Have you ever liked someone but he or she dosent even know your name?

Have you been liked by someone you do not like, and you try your best to avoid him or her?

Have you ever had a friend you want to go out and spend more time with, but that friend of yours has a boy/girlfriend already and they're happily together?

Have you ever been kind, really nice and constantly changing yourself and making an effort to be a "better" person just to earn a smile or nod of recognition from your crush?

I do, and I realize that most of the time people are blindly searching for love; you might like someone who doesnt care about you, but at the same time you will and defintely will turn a blind eye to people who really cares about you; Sometimes our judgements can be very flawed, and I believe, I truly believe, that we should slow down, look around and see, to observe and search DEARLY, who're the ones that really care about you, who are the ones that remember little tiny details about you, who are the ones that smile and wave to you when they are drenched themselves in the rain, people who relentlessly try to make your life better,

Because that is where true love lies.

So take a deep breath, stop, look around, your best friends and possible love partners may not be that far away afterall.

Raist
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This is really an awesome song haha; great beat, actually it's very uplifting and alittle whacky; it's her style!

Presenting, Taylor Swift's You Belong With Me



You're on the phone
with your girlfriend
she's upset
she's going off about
something that you said
she doesn't get your humor
like i do

i'm in my room
it's a typical tuesday night
i'm listening to the kind of music
she doesn't like
she'll never know your story
like i do

but she wears short skirts
i wear t-shirts
she's cheer captain
and i'm on the bleachers
dreaming about the day
when you wake up and find
that what you're looking for
has been here the whole time

if you could see
that i'm the one
who understands you
been here all along
so why can't you
see you belong with me
you belong with me.

walking the streets
with you and your worn out jeans
i can't help thinking
this is how it ought to be
laughing on a park bench
thinking to myself
hey, isn't this easy?

and you've got a smile
that could light up this whole town
i haven't seen it in awhile
since she brought you down
you say you're fine
i know you better than that
hey whatchu doing
with a girl like that

she wears high heels
i wear sneakers
she's cheer captain
i'm on the bleachers
dreaming about the day
when you wake up and find
that what you're looking for
has been here the whole time


if you could see
that i'm the one
who understands you
been here all along
so why can't you
see you belong with me
standing by and
waiting at your backdoor
all this time
how could you not know
baby
you belong with me
you belong with me.

instrumental

oh, i remember
you driving to my house
in the middle of the night
i'm the one who makes you laugh
when you know you're about to cry
and i know your favorite songs
and you tell me about your dreams
think i know where you belong
think i know it's with me

can't you see
that i'm the one
who understands you
been here all along
so why can't you see?
you belong with me.
standing by and
waiting at your backdoor
all this time
how could you not know
baby
you belong with me,
you belong with me.

have you ever thought
just maybe
you belong with me?
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These few days so many people are down with flu, fever, cough, sneeze, ahem ahem ahem ahem.... >.<

Today was awfully interesting... I mean the CT session... it's INTERNATIONAL FRIENDSHIP DAY!!!! And the highlight of the way was the QuizzZZzzZZzz session between the different faculty heads, which were looking all but cheery today; they hald dragged themselves onto the stage, sat down in a relaxed manner, and led by the all-alluring TAG and SHEN HONG (How come we didn't know there was such a MC combi??) a Who-wanna-be-a-millionniare like question format begin...(sniggers)

If anything below was not totally accurate forgive me XD;

"Well, first question!!!!" Tag shouted out in great enthusiasm..."What's the most frequently used transport in Vietnam????? A bus! B Train! C Motorbike! D..."

Tag was happily teling the fac heads to wait till he finishes the question reading before they raise their hands to answer, and the crowd was "eagerly" waiting for someone to make a reply to Tag's question, and right after Tag said "What's the answer?" or something like that, the slide auto skipped to the answer -.- I mean the controller showed the answer before anyone managed to raise their hands....

"And Ares gets one point!!" lolx.

Then the questions got REALLY dark, like loads of exposure about the lack of welfare for the people living in our neighboring countries...and someone complained that it was more like a "Niaoing day" than "Friendship day" >.<

Until....

"Next question! What's the historical monument that is listed in one of the seven wonders in Cambodia?"

A. (Sth tht's not in SEA)
B. Angkor Wat
C. Great Wall of Cambodia
D. Some Japanese Named Park

Matthew raised his hand. He took over the mike, and as he was about to speak someone shouted something. He paused a moment and said "C. Gr-- OOPS sorry I mean B"

XD.

End up Artemis won..yea, won. lol.

Next up is the ANNUALLY....VBC!!!! This year its theme was gaming. Loads of teams participated this time round, including the Mel and WenjiaBAO crew, Seet crew and Sun Shuo crew...etc.etc.

Everything was going on fine, ppl registered, ppl played, this year seems to be more reasonable too as the producers reduced the gaming time from 24 hours to 8am to 12am? Something like that. EVERYTHING SEEMED FINE.... until...THE FIRST DAY OF COMPEITION.

The names below are censored for protection of rights of the players =]

Me
"Hey, how's the compeititon going?"

XXXXX
"Oh the server crashed in the first hour and it's restarting now"

Me
"Yo, how's it going for your team?"

XXX XXXX
"The game havent start yet; last minute got teams join in and the VBC team is registering them before we all start."

o.0 last minute registering? lol well, from that point onwards everything went okay... people were rushing around to computers to check up their latest production lines, games, and stock shares, things seem normal... until yesterday night (Which is like only one day after the game)

According to external sources, the VBC organizers to decided to make it more interesting and "realistic?????" or mebbe they're trying to help the weaker teams out, so they did something extraordinary.

Orignally from the second year onwards, this frigging game ran on fixed equations that when one finds the right numbers one dominates the market. SO this year when Mel n Co. found the right numbers they're leading like siao, but yesterday night the VBC team made an annoucement to "increase" the cost of production lines...

This increase brought most of the teams down from high profit to heavy debt in an INSTANT. realistic right? Even the current economic crisis was unable to do such a thing...ever heard of Blizzard or Asiasoft declaring bankruptcy from high costs of game production? LOL. In VBC this is the norm =D. Some companies had -200mil by today 12pm. Little companies like seet's which was not producing much instantly rose to top 10. WOW.

The participating teams tried to change the situation by introducing a 70% reduction in debts? (sth to save the market, like those government fiscal policies), BUT to no avail lolx. One team ahd their debts reduced by 50mil in one V month but got those debts back again the next, because the PRODUCTION LINE'S INCREASED COSTS, the ROOT of all problems are not dealt with..

And finally VBC seems to fit it's gaming industry theme really well, cause there're "hackers" in the website earning like *&^*&^ whilst ALL other teams are in debt, unrealistic situations where a team dominated a single market simply by spamming production lines, and loopholes that local IT talents in our sch found out. Lastly, it CRASHED again tonight. Seems like Viruses are the fashion this season...

lol finally to end, I have some quotes from discontented participants who spent so much effort tryin to win the game only ...

"Just tell them this is a failure"

"VBC ROX"

"I LUV VBC"

I think I must applaud the VBC team for their efforts to make such a competition, as it must have taken alot of time and all, but the lack of professioanlism in this year's VBC has really taken a toll on its credit...
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Today was quite slack. Mr. Koh was absent, and I didnt take H2 Maths. lolx. I think I'll start recording awesome quotes from people and stick them onto my blog so I can find some fun when I read my earlier posts haha.

OH YEA. CT was really CT this time...we checked our A level registration slips; $483 dollars for me. How did A levels manage to come up with a system that requires so much money for a test? Then after the short checking session...we played MR QUEK"S CHARADES -.- More like Qr. Quek's reality show. There screams and laughter and people drawing dragons that look like chickens and tigers that look like cats. We had the games tgt with A12 and Ms Khoo.

Our class was ACTUALLY LEADING due to enthusiasm from our wonderful classmates, UNTIL JOSMURF THE DETECTIVE decided to practice ultimate sportsmanship and wanted to put forth his message that WINNING is NOT IMPORTANT AT ALL. HAHA. He teased Mr. Quek until we were given -12 points (Each correct question answered gives a class about 3 to 5 points) But we're still leading LOL.

Then Josmurf (Or Jose as I call him), in his ultimate determination, successfully make me act as some drug addict and in turn completed his task of being sporty by allowing Mr. Quek to give us a further -50 points; originally it was -5? 7? then it became 15 until Josmurf insisted it was 50, so we had negative points by the end of the day. Well we had fun, and everyone had sweets thanks to Ms Khoo.

Work is really piling up, metaphorically and literally (is it metaphorically? >.<)
LOL think I'm gonna get crushed soon if I don't do something HAHA, need to make good use of Good Friday >.<)

好久没有用中文写日记了；每次都是在这里上载一些自己写的鬼玩意儿，这次也写点别的吧。今天超多人生病，最近好像特别流行感冒 o0 还有七个月就要考试了，感觉很远，不过回头看看十一年也一眨眼就过了，所以七个月大概也会很快过去吧..活了这么点日子傻事情做了一大堆，笨话也说了不少，哈哈。试图改变自己，一点一点吧，要不然对人不好，最有遗憾的还是自己；至于她么，如果这么没有度量的话，也不值得再去想吧
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Did some Facebook quiz today since I saw a message of someone comparing it's personality with me lolx; got some really funny answers haha; I really liked the How Will you Die? quiz hahahaha;

How Will You Die?
Result: Peacefully In Your Sleep
You're smart, you're healthy and you don't let anger or stress get the best of you. But even the best of us gotta go sometime.

Wanna die in a more adventurous way? We recommend taking up one (or all) of the following hobbies: glass eating, chemical mixing, hijacking, or poking grizzly bears with sticks and calling them "jerkface." XD lolololol

What Letter DOes Your Soulmate's Name Start With?
Result: The Letter C
Possibly (but not limited to) Caden, Charles, Caitlin, Caleb, Cameron or Candace.

Bonus fortunes:
You will meet at: college.
Your first date will be at: Chili's.
The band that plays at your wedding will be: Color Me Badd.
Instead of children, you will have: cats.
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Shall think of something light today =D, especialy after reading other ppl's blogs who're all about emo over test results, emo over bad relationships, emo over bad environment etc etc...

To quote from Xia Yang "Aiyah, laxing lar, things will get better" haha; I think everyone will just meet with problems and sad things and stuff, but at then end of the day we should look at how many nice and valuable memroies and things we have around us right? Let's not look at the cliche things like family or good study conditions that have been repeated over and over.

Let's just remmeber the little jokes we cracked with our friends, the funny things we did to each other, the laughs we had in school and everywhere else...

Life's too short to leave behind any regrets, so let's just allow sadness to exist but let happiness take control =].

School seemed awfully busy and alive this week, haha; maybe because of the more active involvement by the JC1s. Block test results have all been given out, and it's time for some adjusting. Last week's JTS was awfully fun; I think mu Junior class has more or elss of a positive effect on ours. These few days are campaigning days, and goodies flooded every class bench; the yellow floating balloons are really really cute haha; wonder how Sarah Kang, is it her? got hold of one >.< it's from Apollo isnt it? The funny thing is, we were all "singing" the National Anthem last morning and suddenly one yellow ballooon started floating lazily into the sky as the flag started raising XD. And we did all kinds of weird things with the items, like planting the LOL team's lollipop into A11's garden.

Haha, I like election days.
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She looks at me, I turn around so she won't see.
That I want, and I'm needing, everything that we could be..
I'll bet he's wonderful, that guy she'd talked about
And he's got everything that I have to live without

She talks to me, I can't stop feeling warm and free
That I can't even see anyone when she's near me
She doesnt seem to care, she doesnt know my name,
I wonder if she knows she's all I think about at night

She's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar,
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star,
She's the song in my head, I keeping singing don't know why I do...

She walks by me, can't she tell that I can't breathe?
And now she goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
He'd better hold her tight, give her all he's got,
Look into those scintillating eyes and feel lucky cause

She's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar,
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star,
She's the song in my head, I keeping singing don't know why I do...

So I walk home alone, as I turn off the light
I'll forget her eyes and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

She's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar,
The only one that keeps me dreaming'bout a simple laugh,
She's the song in my head, I keeping singing don't know why I do.
She's the time, I can't hold, and there's never enough
And she's all that I need to fall into

She looks, at me, I turn around so she won't see.

Thanks Taylor Swift for the inspiration XDD =]
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